So...

So.. I wrote this song three years ago. It seems like so long ago, and yet lately, especially tonight, it feels like I wrote it three minutes ago.

Lying in the dark I think about you
The things that we both have done to tear us in two
We both are at fault, we're both to blame
But I've been hiding my feelings out of shame

I know you don't mean to put me down
But something's not right when I have to hide my frown
I'm not the girl that I used to be
Right now it's not like I'm even me

I can't be myself when I'm around you
You always push me down without trying to
And I can't see or speak or even breathe
You're choking me, you're smothering
I'm drowning

It doesn't matter what your intentions are
What you really mean or what's in your heart
The truth is what you're doing is slowly killing me
I feel so alone, why can't you see?

I can't be myself when I'm around you
You always push me down without trying to
And I can't see or speak or even breathe
You're choking me, you're smothering
I'm drowning

Even though I love you and I want things to be the same
I can't go on the way things are, pretending I'm ok

I can't be myself when I'm around you
You always push me down without trying to
And I can't see or speak or even breathe
You're choking me, you're smothering
I'm drowning

"Drowning" - August 2004
written by Debi Robarts