Curves in the Road
Mid-afternoon on the last Friday of October I was called into a meeting with my supervisor and the director over our project. I walked in with my notebook, sat down and immediately knew something was off. The director had a hard time looking me in the eye. My supervisor just looked sad. I said, “What’s up?” and the director started on about how they had been hoping we’d get assigned new sites for our project but just hadn’t yet. It was then that it hit me that I was being let go. I took a deep breath and let her… [Full Post]
I feel like I could fly out of myself at any moment. Like my skin just isn’t enough to hold all of me in, all the things I want to do and see and be. I have too many thoughts flowing through my head at once. I feel like they are racing, but there is no finish line. I feel like I am moving faster than my body can keep up. I sit here at my desk, responding to emails, answering questions, filling out trackers. But I feel like it’s holding me back, keeping me tied to this spot when… [Full Post]
The coffee here tastes bad, everyone says so. But they keep drinking it. I think at first people thought it was because the coffee makers were old and rarely cleaned. The company bought new fancy coffee makers and promised the coffee would start tasting better. It didn’t. After a while, the company decided to switch vendors/brands of coffee. They even let the employees vote on which flavored coffees they wanted. They promised it would start tasting better. It didn’t. I don’t drink the coffee here, and I am surprised anyone does. I brought my own french press in one day,… [Full Post]
Paid to Picnic
So.. today is my company’s annual “Day in the Park.” Office closes at 11:30 and we all go to a park in Folsom and have a BBQ, play some weird games, which always includes Pictionary and kickball, and then go home. So basically, I am getting paid to picnic. Which is kind of cool, I just wish I could choose who I was picnicking with, instead of being with coworkers. Coworkers like the one who came up to me this week and told me her husband is a cross-dresser. I don’t know why she told me that. But at least… [Full Post]
Yes, I Know.
So.. I know I’m one of the worst bloggers ever. I neglect my blog and readers all the time. Sorry. Although, I’m not sorry enough to really make a change, so.. take it as you will. Last week (wow, was that only last week??) I went in to the doctor to have some things checked out. I had been having minor chest pains and wanted to rule out any issues with my heart or lungs. It was, as I suspected, due to stress. *sigh* We talked about some of the stuff going on with me, how to help relieve stress… [Full Post]
So.. Ruth was complaining that my last post kind of left everyone hanging. Sorry. To add to it, today I was told my last day on my project is November 13.
From the Side of the Road
So.. I am stupid. I just ran out of gas so here I am, waiting for my brother-in-law to come bail me out. Yeah. I think this is the fourth time ever I’ve run out of gas. You’d think I’d learn. Anyway, I was on my way home from another “life changing” appointment. Same place. Step two. Step three is to come Wednesday. Ok! Enough secrecy and mystery! I’ve decided it’s time to take charge of my life. I’ve been in therapy for the summer, been learning how to deal, and something that has come up is I don’t have… [Full Post]