Too Close To Home

So.. last night I went in search of new blogs to read and I found several. One was somewhat new so I read back through all the posts this year (very entertaining dating stories). One I shared with a friend. One I saved for later to go back and read, because, well, to be honest – her story is my story, and I wanted to see what happened to her. Her about me page said it was all behind her now, a year later. It said that now this blog was about just her and her life, but the old… [Full Post]

One With Actual Substance

So.. I wasn’t sure if I was going to post this. But, I guess I will. Saturday was a rough day for me. It started off well; meeting for coffee with my friends, then the farmer’s market. Only, at the coffee house, I learned something I really didn’t want to know. M is having a baby. The person who said it doesn’t know about our situation, said it innocently enough to “mutual friends.” And I had to fake a quick smile and hope for a subject change (which, thankfully came quickly). My first feeling was that I was the female… [Full Post]

Better Than Excedrin

So.. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that the headache I had for five days went away just hours after I sent the e-mail. The amount of stress my body has endured over the past few months, it’s amazing I don’t have worse problems. What makes me so sad is how very different things are from the way I imagined they would be. I am not angry, I am not bitter. I am simply disappointed. The thing is, I know I made mistakes, and I know I “should have known better.” I know that. It’s like when your mom tells… [Full Post]

Home Is Where They Catch You When You Fall

So.. I have tried to write this post four times, but each time it comes out just as one big long complaint. I don’t want it to be that way. Maybe I just need to try again later.

The Big, Ugly Truth

So.. my last post was over a month ago, and before that they were pretty sporadic. I’ve posted a few times about things being rough lately, about a few issues, stress, etc.. but never in much detail. The reason why I’ve been MIA and reclusive is the past few months I have been dealing with in denial about my depression. I’ve debated for the last week or so just what to say here, or if I should say anything at all. The truth is I still don’t really know what’s going on, how I feel, if things will ever REALLY… [Full Post]

Bullets, In No Particular Order

• What a difference thirty minutes made yesterday, after a hard day of struggling with work and spinning wheels and wanting to cry. <3