Christmastime
So.. Christmas is just around the corner and I’m still not really feeling the...
Christmastime
So.. Christmas is just around the corner and I’m still not really feeling the holiday spirit. It has been an interesting year. Last year about this time was one of the hardest times I have dealt with, and in some ways I’m still dealing with. Instead of the happy glow and warmth of the holidays, I feel an emptiness, a loneliness and a longing for something I can not have. I did my Christmas shopping this week and found some really good and fun gifts for my family. It’s hard being poor, but I did pretty well considering I have… [Full Post]
Dream
So.. not everyone remembers their dreams, but I usually do. Not only that but I have dreams regularly, almost every night. Sometimes I only remember them for those brief moments between sleep and awake, and then when I open my eyes they are gone. Other times if I’m fast enough, I can grab a pen and paper and jot down every bit before it slips away from me. And still other times, I remember them and they never leave me. When I was little, I had a recurring dream about the next street over. Everything about my dream was true-to-life;… [Full Post]
I'm not calling for a second chanceI'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.”
Teacher
So.. I wouldn’t say that G broke my heart, although maybe with more time he could have. But, he did crack me, and allowed my heart to be broken later, by two different men. I met G online, through my website message board. We talked, decided to meet, and I chickened out. I was 19 at the time and didn’t think it was a good idea. Two years later we started talking again, I don’t remember why or how. We decided to meet again, and this time I went through with it. We met at Downtown Plaza and walked the… [Full Post]
Always On My Mind
So.. there is one thing I didn’t take into consideration when I decided to buy the house that I bought. The deal, financially, was good. The house itself is beautiful and I am still SO IN LOVE with the floors (and the shutters!). Everything is great about the house, and I’m happy I helped out a friend at the same time (two birds, one stone). But, I didn’t consider that this is, and always will be, his house. Every moment I am here, I have a memory of him. In this office.. the night I was here and helped him… [Full Post]
The Worst Version of Myself
So.. Tom Hanks’ character in “You’ve Got Mail” asked, “Do you ever feel like you’ve become the worst version of yourself?” The answer to this question is yes. Or, in some weird way, I hope so. Weird because who hopes they are the worst version but true because I hope I don’t get worse than this. I was told yesterday I am “sabotaging” myself. And I don’t know why I’m doing it. I feel angry, I’ve been angry all week. But is this the best solution? No matter what advice I get, and it has all been the same, I… [Full Post]
Dream
So.. not everyone remembers their dreams, but I usually do. Not only that but I have...
“I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.”
I'm screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don't give me choice
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.”
Teacher
So.. I wouldn’t say that G broke my heart, although maybe with more time he could...
Always On My Mind
So.. there is one thing I didn’t take into consideration when I decided to buy the...
The Worst Version of Myself
So.. Tom Hanks’ character in “You’ve Got Mail” asked, “Do...